My 2016 Summer – Journey from Powerlessness to Free & Responsible

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I know it’s already 2017, but last summer God led me through a process that I’ve been meaning to write down for the last six months. I think it’s important to record the stories and lessons we experience, even if it’s just to remind ourselves over and over again of God’s goodness and faithfulness.

The story I want to tell is that of my journey from powerlessness to being Free & Responsible (one of Bethel’s core values). It was not easy learning this lesson (and I’m definitely still in the middle of it), but I hope that my account of this journey will bless you as it has blessed me.

“A Grand Vision”

On June 12th, 2016, I went to a coworkers meeting for our church’s young adult intensive school. Near the end of the meeting, one of our pastors began sharing her vision for the school. “In the future, I envision expanding to even more countries and starting new schools with specific focuses, such as creative arts! We’re going to do so much more; this is just the beginning.”

We were already doing six schools a year, 60 days a year. (And this wasn’t part of my job–I was just a very dedicated volunteer.) I couldn’t imagine what “more” would look like. I was exhausted just thinking about it.

I looked around at the faces of everyone, trying to decipher what they were feeling as they were hearing this—mainly because I was super confused by the emotions that were being wrought up inside of me. I thought, “Anyone else hearing this must be super excited about our pastor’s vision. It’s expanding the Kingdom and encountering the lives of young people all over the world… But why is it that all I want to do is cry?”

And not a ‘touched by God’ sort of cry. I wanted to crawl up into a ball and ugly cry.
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My Mentors and What I’ve Learned From Them: Doing Flows From Being

Hey Everyone! It’s been awhile since I last posted something, but so much has happened. I’ve needed to write for a long time, and finally now, 36,000 feet in the air, on a plane, I’ve found the time to do it.

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Chris and I aboard the plane

(We’re currently heading to Taiwan to minister at 青年學校 [young adult intensive school] in Tainan for a week, and I’ll be leading worship.)

Where I’m At

It’s been an eventful last few months. I’ll start with where I’m at—not meaning my current physical location, which is as I mentioned, somewhere above the Pacific Ocean, four hours from our destination of Taoyuan International Airport. I’m currently in the middle of my Third Year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Third year is different from First and Second Year in that it’s an internship, and for nine months you have the privilege of interning for a Bethel leader (there is an interviewing and selection process), and they become your mentor. Continue reading “My Mentors and What I’ve Learned From Them: Doing Flows From Being”

Artist Interview: Thandi Gamedze

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Thandi Gamedze | Spoken Word Artist

March 4, 2016

This morning, I recorded Thandi’s spoken word titled “Your Pen” in my bedroom studio. Thandi hails from South Africa and is a third-year student at BSSM. She also has a huge heart for social justice. I interviewed her after our recording session and got to learn a lot about her creative journey with God and the revelation she has about God’s great value for creativity.

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“Planting a Garden” – My Music Production Journey

A Good “God-Idea”

I want to share a bit of my journey recently—a journey that I’ve found to be quite new and exciting. It all started about a month ago before I left for Taiwan on a ministry trip (my third one in the last five months). In revival group, many people were sharing their struggle of fundraising for Azusa Now in LA (April 9th, 2016—Revival is going to break out, guys!). I heard their dilemma, and I wanted to be able to help them somehow.

Giving them money seemed like a direct and possible solution, but I am also a “poor student” and technically the money I have is not my money but given to me by my parents and other supporters.

I thought about my talents and resources and came up with an idea. One thing I know about my revival group is that many of us are singer-songwriters and musicians. Personally, besides my parents and other generous supporters, one of my sources of income is through selling my music. So I know, music sells.

“That’s what I can do. I can help my fellow classmates record their original music, which they can then sell online to raise money for Azusa!”

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Introduction to My Weekly Blog

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I have decided to start writing regularly, setting apart time every week to focus on chronicling the experiences and lessons I’ve received from school, relationships and life. In the last two years, I’ve received a number of prophetic words about writing outlines and books. Therefore, I’ve decided the best way to steward these words is to take the first step and actually start writing, i.e. putting my ideas out there in word-form and practicing the art of writing, even if it is messy to begin with. Everything is messy to begin with. That’s why God thought to encourage us with this verse, “Don’t despise the days of small beginnings.” (Zechariah 4:10)

This is vulnerable for me, in some sorts. In the last few posts, I’ve written more about ministry trips and class notes than I have about my own inward journey. Yes, there was that vulnerable summer post I wrote a few months ago about my journey back to Bethel, but besides that I haven’t written much about my personal journey. Continue reading “Introduction to My Weekly Blog”